盧曦 LU Xi 對岸 The Opposite Bank 布面油畫 2007 172x130cm

偏不向前看——盧曦作品

展覽時(shí)間/Date：2009.05.23-2009.06.20

開幕酒會/Reception：2009.05.23 15:30

展覽地點(diǎn)/Venue：玉蘭堂 北京市朝陽區(qū)酒仙橋路2號院3818庫

LINE GALLERY 3818 Warehouse, 2 Jiuxianqiao Rd, Chaoyang Dist, beijing

策展人/Curator：趙塑/ZHAO Sue

我出生于八十年代的西安，是獨(dú)生子女的一帶代,抱著自己的毛絨娃娃長大的孩子。

四歲左右住進(jìn)了一個(gè)叫做鐵指醫(yī)院的大院子里。我們住的樓房后面有一大片油菜花地，春天花開的時(shí)候許多的爸爸媽媽和孩子，也包括我們家都去那里散步。漸漸的，醫(yī)院里蓋起了幼兒園、學(xué)校、還有汽水廠，油菜花地變成了水泥鋪的操場。我們就一人抱一瓶汽水廠里產(chǎn)的冰峰汽水，在學(xué)校操場里瘋跑；或是跑到醫(yī)院十樓樓頂一起向下看。可是現(xiàn)在的我，站在三樓向下看都會頭發(fā)暈、腿發(fā)軟。

在美院上大學(xué)的第二年，我不幸腳骨折了，只能靠拄拐行走。不但要在家待兩個(gè)月，還錯(cuò)過系里第一次組織的出外寫生旅游。在那兩個(gè)月里，我懂得了，能走路已經(jīng)是件很幸福的事了。畢業(yè)后畫過壁畫，去過廣西的北海、百色，白天吃芒果買珍珠、看大海；夜里打著高瓦數(shù)的紫光燈畫海底世界。建設(shè)中的海洋館里七八個(gè)技術(shù)人員正在把一條剛捕到的十五米的鯨鯊制作成標(biāo)本，旁邊還放著一缸被福爾馬林浸泡著的、已經(jīng)面目全非的海豚。無奈我們天天的工作餐都是曬干的鯊魚肉，還有鯊魚骨做的湯。

2006年夏天，來北京畫畫。漸漸的，小時(shí)候的記憶被一點(diǎn)一點(diǎn)地勾了起來。我的不倒翁、壞壞的熊貓玩具、彩色的塑料涼鞋；永遠(yuǎn)玩不膩的碰碰車、露天的游泳池。總覺得小時(shí)候的這段記憶是最深刻的。到現(xiàn)在還記得，上幼兒園時(shí)大家坐鐵搖籃，搖的同學(xué)突然一發(fā)力——翻了，我的一個(gè)手指甲被砸掉了。老師背著我去醫(yī)院包扎好又把我背回了家，那天下著雨……有段時(shí)間，晚上做完作業(yè)，一群小孩兒在院里的大禮堂外偷看大人們“搓二步”。總是昏暗的燈光，偶有的一束彩色光束照射在某一對的身上，迷幻而安靜。

重拾記憶，畫那些曾經(jīng)擁有過的、曾經(jīng)經(jīng)歷過的，有快樂、有悲傷。對我來說每每完成的不僅僅是一副副畫——享受它們的過程，回憶童年的甜蜜和酸澀，為了我們遙遠(yuǎn)的童年還有那些曾經(jīng)忘卻的記憶。

I was born in 1980s in Xi’an. As a member of the first generation of family planning, I grew up with my doll.

Our family moved to the living quarters of Railway Hospital when I was four. Behind our apartment was a field of rape flower. We went for walk along with many other families when the flowers blossomed in the spring. Then the kindergarten, school and soft drink factory were built one after one. The field was replaced by a cement playground. My little friends and I used to play rough around the playground with a bottle of soft drink from the soft drink factory in each one’s hand. At that time we always looked down from the 10th floor of the hospital. But now, I will faint even looking down from the 3rd floor.

I broke my leg and could only walk with a stick at the beginning of my second school year in Xi’an Fine Arts Academy. I was forced to stay at home for 2 months and missed the first sketch journey, which made me feel the ability of walk is really a gift from heaven.

After graduation, I had painted mural and went to Beihai and Baise in Guangxi. In there, I enjoyed my seaside life in the daytime and painted underwater world under ultraviolet lamp in the night. In the under-constructing aquarium, several technicians were making a just caught shark into specimen. Right aside was a decayed dolphin in the formalin tank. At that time, I had to survive dried huss and huss soup as everyday meal.

I came to Beijing in the summer of 2006. From then on I put all my energy into painting. Gradually I recalled my roly-poly, bad-boy-looking panda bear, plastic tablecloth; the bumper car which I never felt bored to play, that open-air pool. I believe the memory of that period will never fade. I can still remember that day, when I was still in the kindergarten, a kid turned over the steel cradle I was in. It broke a nail of mine. My teacher carried me to the hospital and sent me home, it was a rainy day...For a period of time, after finished my homework, I along with my little friends would peep at grow-ups dancing "two-step" in the auditorium. There was always a colorful light lighting on one couple of them, made everything mysterious and quiet.

Revive my old memory, paint the thing once I have, the event once I experienced, no matter they are joyful or sorrowful. I am not just painting, but enjoying the sweetness and bitterness of my dust-laden memory and try to recall everyone's childhood and their long lost past.